leti is in US LA California now. =)

DISAPPONTMENT

just ONE freaking word to describe it.
disappointed.

times like this really magnify your shortcomings.
i know i am NOT supposed to scrutinise pple's shortcoming(s).
But this time, sry i just CANT HELP IT.
i am just, human.
im not superwoman.
neither am i an angel.
i'm not perfect, in short.

i thought i could always turn blind on your flaws.
but i guess i cannot this time. why.

is it you that i cannot tolerate or is it me.. myself that i cant stand anymore.

went to work for 1/2 hr today.
then went home.

too sick to work.
went polyclinic to see doc.
stomach infection. =(

so tired that i slept from 1pm to 730pm.
i guess didnt sleep well last night.
esp when i keep having cramps.
waking up to go toilet.
had diarrhea.
i think i pass out whatever i eat.
=(
so weak.
so hungry.
but i dare nt eat, cox it feels like im gona vomit whatever i eat too. =(

i cant believe i need to go toa payoh for pharm pract meeting tmr.
i hate being enclosed in a room, esp when im having diarrhea, stomach upset, nausea etc.

=(

preceptorship been good.
learnt alot.
its really different from mugging those notes and books.

fell sick on sat. woke up at 5am.
had bad cramps.
diarrhea.
went to work.
had postural hypotension.
felt like fainting.
knocked off earlier than usual.
took temperature--- OH GOSH!! 38.5 degrees.
madness.
my preceptor guessed it right. she said maybe will have fever--> then must see doctor. but i was too weak and tired to walk out of the house.
took a SUPER LONG "nap". (maybe nt considered nap anymore)
perspired so much in an air-con room, without blanket.
AMAZING.

anyways, i bought my 2nd reactive bowling ball some weeks back.
TWISTED FURY SOLID!!=)
supposed to give better back-end reaction. heh.
i hope i can get use to it fast fast. before sunig.

will upload photos soon.
too tired today,
nights