i'm HAPPY today. =) HAHA.

brainy.

hey hey hey. i'm back babes. i noe i noe. you people will start asking me how the interview went right. yea yea. thanks for praying for me. thanks for being so thoughtful. here it goes.

3pm. i was STILL at hm. formal clothes ironed. but, i hadnt bathed. near 330pm i left hse. i was a little worried that i might be late for interview. it was a real LONGGGGG journey. from pasir ris to buona vista. i was so NERVOUS(DUHHHH). my heart was pumping RANDOMLY already. as in, haha, even the pacemaker would not be of good use. OMG.

HEAVY RAIN!! really heavy. i hate it. ok. reached there ON time. 5pm. phew!!~~

ok. shortlisted applicants are grouped. i think from teams A to E. i'm in team A. so yea, i was interviewed by THREE professors. WHAT??!! yea. THREE. the layout is 3 prof VS. 1(me). yea, i wouldnt say they are aggressive(unlike the medicine interviews). BUT still, they are fast and furious with their qns(eh. not really oso actually). i'm thankful that it was an interactive interview. they were nice pple, they didnt give a "sian" look and most importantly they were listening esp to the little details i said. i'm not perfect, so yea, i made some mistakes too. wana noe what they asked? come, speak to me. (longgg story. i'm too lazy to type.)

oh yea. lets wait. next week. good vs bad news. no pt crying over spilt milk. lets wait n see. its over. summary: both dexterity test and interview werent tt easy. challenging. very.

that's abt it. oh. thanks for ur messages. thanks for the "pouring/adding of oil"(jiayou-s), people.







had cell at 7pm. till abt 11 plus 12? oh man. i so tired. zzzzz.
double eyelids became triple.

brainy.

to readers who are here to criticise n bitch, i invite you to leave now.
to readers who are here to just look look and pass judgements, get lost.
for we have our rights to say whatever we want.

sian. i have interview later. at 5pm. i had btt in the morning. thank God i passed. yea.

thanks for e help. thou its not right for me to find out. not right bcox i think shouldnt have waited and probed further. shld have just moved on. but u noe i still cant. i guess we will NEVER be able to get our misunderstandin(eh, not really misunderstanding. just duno what happened) resolved. but well.

all i can say to him is all the best, take care. have a blissful life ahead. (i still cant tell hm tt in msn.) its time i move on. 4 years have passed. yes, only 1 year has been bad for me.(say all you wan, its short.) not really bad la.

i was extremely devastated when it happened. i am not exaggerating, you can never guess the no. of times i cried. sometimes i wana let him know how big the impact his actions and decisions had on me. i noe its not his fault. it just happened "amazingly" to them. for a moment, i thot i was blessed. but it was then gone in split seconds. yea. done. now i'm happy with whatever i have.

i want to put a "DO NOT DISTURB" sign on myself. that's it. closed.
i'm declaring- i'm moving on. YEA. i'm living strong.

i gotta get gg. AHHH. i think i'm running late. i have NOT ironed my formal wear. WHAT??!! ciao. (=

brainy.
=)

finally, two hurdles DOWN. one more to go-fri(interview).

shall share abt my dentistry manual dexterity test today. First, thank God i wasnt late. i thought i would be late since the test is at 2pm(quite early). hmmm. i guess somehow, i'm lucky because the dentists whom i was attached to during my attachment actually told me the stuff that i will be tested. BUT BUT, this is ONE PERFECT EXAMPLE how knowing the qns doesnt really mean you will do good.

ALL "STUNS" must be done using only with my hands, 1 "knife", 1 ruler, 1 pencil and pliers(used to bend and cut wires).

DURATION: 3hrs.

TASK 1- moulding a molar(your hind tooth) using plasticine.
level of difficulty- ******************
i'm actually given a sample (waxed molar) to follow. ok. the difficulty comes when i'm making the shape/impression. what i mean is that i'm required to make the exact bite of the tooth- the top view of the tooth(this includes the weird yet unique pattern you see). the usual me- i panicked. i re-did the tooth 3 times until i'm completely satisfied with it. blame it on my character-perfectionist.

TASK 2- cutting a cube(2.3cm) from a cylinder clay. then another small cube(1cm) from the 2.3cm cube.
level of difficulty: ***
okay pinky. thanks for your advice. haha. you knew it long ago that i STILL cant draw straight lines. yes, i was extra careful when drawing those lines. hmm. everything is okay. just that the clay is real hard to be cut. clumsy me cut my finger. i was so scared LAR. at that pt of time, all i had in my mind was to get the tasks done. who cares abt my finger. so i just used a tissue to apply pressure(to stop the bleeding).

TASK 3- bending wires into some some shapes. we were given 2 wires to bend into 2 shapes. the first one shld look like a Z with its ends curled. the second one shld look like a swan. Requirements(according to what i think the markersare looking for.)- 1. must be lying flat on the table after bending. 2. must look exactly like the ones drawn on the qn paper.
Level of difficulty: *
haha. i like this the most. because while pple ard me had to use the pilers. i didnt have to. i just used my fingers. to me, somehow, this task is easy.

hmmm. i was strategically seated. at the back so i could see the stuff that other pple are doing- be it good or bad. HAHA- advantaged! woooot, but i really wana commend this girl seated just next to me(on my right.) she's super PRO. she's fast. she's talented lar. oh, there's babes too. year 3 dental students. they were in the lab too. or shld i say, i'm using her table!! haha.

2 hrs later, many started leaving. i didnt. i made full use of tt 3 hrs while my friend from mj was already done and waiting for me. haha. i took my own sweet time- to touch up the molar, the cube thing and last checks on my wires. i just wanted mine to look the best. my friend said my work pieces are very nice. hope they really are from the professor 's pt of view. but the test is really SCARY! i guess everyone is scared(because i saw them panicking too-with their hands shaking!! remb? i was strategically seated.). HAHA.

this is what i really want in my life- i hope i get it. i am really focusing on this. nthing else. i'm for real. are you supporting me too?

brainy.
(if ever i fail, i hope my 2nd choice will nt disappoint me.)
gotta prepare for m interview. heard that medicine interview is tough. the interviewers are fast and furious with their qns. haaa. i better get prepared. bring it on pple.

basically, this week will be quite busy for me. or shld i say, just stressful. well, its nt really stressful, just that every single obstacle this week clearly determines my future. my path.

tue. wed. fri.
i need FLEXIBLE fingers. dexterous hands tmr!! haha.
come on. spirit-fingers.

crazy la. either i am unlucky or unlucky. either way, i'm unlucky. i'm the last interviewee(okay, at least one of the last 2-3 interviewees). imagine how restless/tired/irritated/bored/SAS(delete where appropriate) can the interviewer(s) get. but nvm, whatever it takes, YEA. i will give my best shot. shotSSS i mean. haha. whatever it takes.

!brainy. HAHA.

first day of my internship and i was late. half an hour late. i know it's terrible but well...what to do. i'm the late queen. luckily the person-in-charge, raine, was nice. she didnt say anything bout my lateness. however, halfway through the orientation bout the project, this guy called andrew said he wanna talk to me. he scared me to death. i thought he wanna scold me bout being late. but guess what!! he's my 'boss'. i'm under him and another guy called lester, my supervisor. he just wanted to talk to me bout the crisis they're having now. also, he heard from glenn, the interviewer cum project manager, that i'm good. thus, he's having high expectation of me. well... his words make me worried.

anw our team is damn pathetic. there's only the three of us doing some data migration and change management thread. the workload will be quite heavy these few days as we have to meet a deadline for testing. but i didnt do much today. they didnt have time to teach me the software, SAP, they're using. so basically, i just slacked ard facing the stupid computer that has no wireless connection. that's what peh wah, gill n i did for about six to seven hours. that's like so bleah. imagine yourself staring at a powerpoint or word, pretending to be reading some stuff but in actual fact, ur dozing off. so duh la. doing nothing is even more tiring.

also, i was quite shocked when i entered the 'office'. actually, u cant say it's an office. it's more like a big classroom with many long tables. we dont have our own individual desk at all. there's another small room called the solution. the people inside are mostly indians who are very good at some programming languages.

hmmm...i think the people there are quite nice. raine has organized a bbq next fri. that seems to be our first bonding session. anw, all thanks to my wonderful shoe that i have a few blisters n one of them burst. that's like so pain la. damn it. n i think i'm a bad networking student. i cant even troubleshoot the wireless connection problem. in the end, i cant even surf the net the whole day. bleah. well... hope tmr wont be a rotting day =)

pinKy

updates!
CLIMBING!!
CLIMB ONNNNN!
FALLING!!
FALL ONNN!
yes, trg camp is over. waiting for the next camp(S) to come.
i'm quitting this current job soon. i'm sick of it.

to all the poly pple having internship.
take care! and enjoy.

i'm sry pple. i noe i sux.

brainy.

yinger wanted to hit 100 entries. haha. i made IT!! i'm the 100th.
okay, lame.

anw, work on tue wed thur. "hurray!"
today, i just wana rest.
today is 20th. haha. OH.
tmr i have trg camp. shall attempt to sleep early.
i hope they don't make me do the "must-climb-superhigh" obstacles.
i might puke. but think will be fun right? just say YES.

brainy.

aRlOO galS!!! i am back. hahaa... felt like playin with you guys a game called "dumb dumb" game... hahaa.... nxt time plae with u all ar... hahaa.... heheee...

yInger

watched 'love and honor' on tue. it was fab!!

the story was great. just LOVE takuya kimura!! =))

his acting is terrific and he is just so charismatic.

too bad he is married.

oh well...whatever. haha.

pinKy

i'm back.
many activities are coming up next week.
hope i wun ruin my future.
hope this is what i want.
i asked for it.
so i better not regret.
arghhhh.

brainy. (=

did something bad today. darn bad.
well...it wasnt the first time in my life cheating so...
guess it should be alright. haha.
anw, went shopping with my sis.
bought a bottom and some tops. so happy =))
just LOVE shopping with her. it's great.
would LIKE to shop in london too!!
but that's impossible. haha.

pinKy

she your true good friend, doesnt mind ur bitchy-ness.
she never gets tired of you.
she loves you for who you are.
we don't bear grudges.
we don't compare.
we try our best not to leave you out. NOT even one.

but in times where we do fail.
sorry we are not perfect humans.
we do fail.
we forgive. and yes,
we forget.
that's because i still love u girls for who you are.
regardless of what shit others say.
it doenst matter anymore.

brainy.

its me AGAIN. yes, it is.
its hard, so hard to admit one's failure. my failure.
its so.. yes, it is.

oh man. so BORED cannnn!
0016. i'm still awake. WHAT??!
i'm gona sleep.
good night people.

brainy.

its just so amazing that many terms/words are so so so similar yet they are absolutely different. vice-versa.
its just so amazing TOO that many terms/words are so so so disparate(can be antagonistic) BUT they actually mean the SAME thing.

tell me.
what's:
1) the DIFFERENCE betwn a part and apart.
so different!!

2) the DIFFERENCE betwn slim chance and fat hope?
they mean the SAME thing LAR.

slim vs. fat. HAI. how can tt happen. it shldnt be the same rightttt?

brainy.
being apart from you, makes me a part of you.
FAT hope, slim chance, come on. be realistic!

i'm going CRAZY soon.
i'm not kidding.

all i could say is "what the hell"
what else can i say.

brainy. BONKER-ing ard the room.
sleepy. yes. i am.

HE made me a liar.
SHE made me a fool.
yar.a FOOL.

HE made me look like a fool.
but i think he's the real FOOL.
come on. tell me.
who's the liar. who's the REAL fool.

this is so stoooopid.


brainy.
*dancing and yea, doing the char char*

its THREE in the morning. huRRR.
why am i still awake? =(
my eyes are tired, its apparently getting BLUR-er. oh man. save MEEEE!

i NEVER asked for more than how much you can afford to give me.
whyyyy. why.
why did things happen this way.
i dun wan things my way.
i want you to go YOUR way.
does it EVEN matter now.

brainY. *snores LOUDLY.*
says unGLAM to herself.

emo. emo. emo.
no no no. NEVER again. go away, my emo "friend".
do you sometimes feel like crying for no reason. ie. just wana CRY.

Life's gettin abit boring.
but i'm happy today, for some REASONS.
work work work.
it MAY drive me crazy.
back to work, brainy!!!
brainy, dun give up.

brainy. rocks the chair.
*forward and backward*

i'm bored!! damn bored.

i realised i'm just a "san fen zhong ri du" person.

i get bored very easily with what i'm doing.

i need new challenges each day.

hmmm..i think that's bad.

well...what to do when the work really sucks to the core.

i guessed i'll just have to suffer when attachment comes.

anw, talking bout attchment...i'm mad. darn mad.

there's something wrong with the sch managment.

no wonder nowadays ppl are trying to get their paper

using the shortest path possible in order to

get out of singapore's education system quickly.

well...cant blame them. i'm ONE of them actually.

oh well...

pinKy